Closer

I must say, going away from home brought me closer to my family and closer to God. I know that if I were to have stayed at home, I would have continued living the same lost, wondering life that I live during high school. I was so confused about who I am and what I believed that I played a game of make-believe that made me look one way to my friends and another to my family and church.

Honestly, I never truly appreciated my friends that I had at church. They seemed fake and unreal to me. Now that I've gone away, I've found the friends that are the most real to me. I praise God every day for what I have and for reaching a point of gratitude.

High school does have it's ups and downs but it is sheltered by your family and church. You see only part of the evil that lingers in the world. College has certainly opened my eyes to what the devil has in store for the world. But I have also seen what God has in store for me. He has a plan to take my hardship and my reluctant sole and transform it to be used for good.

Now, I know that who my friends are truly means everything. Choosing the right friends affects who you are as a person and how you make descisions in your life. I like the people on my floor but I know that I cannot form the relationships that I want. Their presence in my life turns me into a person that I do not like and do not want around. I pray that God helps me to find strong, Christian friends at a church that I recently discovered and am devoted to get involved into.

So for those out there reading, learn to let God rule your life. It seems weird to hear that and probably redundant but it is true. God wants your life to be prosperous and lived to the full and it begins when you let Him control it. I love this bible study called "In the Book" by Community Bible Study. I dive deeper into the word and learn so much about who I am in God's eyes and more about who God really is.

I am struggling right now but I don't regret it. I will stick it out and fight against the grain. I will stick up for what I believe in and I will let God lead me. He knows what is right.