So they say that life gives you a roller coaster of emotions and struggles.  Is this true or what.  My life these past few months, give or take a few, has been one giant roller coaster where the lows last longer than the highs.

Its painful.  Incredibly painful.  To sit and see your life go by through this lulls and valleys is nothing that I want to see last very long in my life.  But what I hate the most is how this struggle seems to only occur with the same people and the same situation.  Which makes me wonder, am I doing something wrong?  Am I driving people away?  Am I hurting other people's feelings that would lead me to receive this kind of behavior towards me?  I simply don't understand.  All I want is for this to resolve itself and go away.

Looking at myself in this situation, I hope I'm not taking out my emotions on other people.  Lately, I have been feeling homesick.  With football season starting, fall weather coming along and my latest enjoyment of Karen Kingsbury novels, I find myself wishing that my family was a short drive home.  And when I mean short I mean around 2 hours or so.  Its difficult for me to see my residents and my friends be able to go home for a weekend and spend time with their families or have their families come down and see them.  I find myself saying that this just is not fair but I remind myself that I picked the school.

But I also remember that I am not alone.  I have a God that loves me and is always with my right by my side.  I tend to lose track of this but I cannot and should not forget that God is bigger than my issues. God is big enough to take my hand and lead me through.  God is big enough and his love is big enough to comfort me in my hardest and lowest times.  Jeremiah is a great example.  He struggled through pain after pain after pain with God right along with him.  God spoke through Jeremiah to the Israelites through a rough time in their history.  If God can use and comfort Jeremiah, he will do the same for me.